i am very confused about what exactly makes me happy.
i should write more about the problems i really care about. the funny thing is that it’s easy to solve problems that don’t really change anything when solved. or is it that i mis-identify those supposedly pointless problems, the problems that only those who are affluent suffer?
the solutions to these problems are like reality tv. they would make someone happy, and someone rich. but they’d add almost no value to this world.
so back to the whole startup thing that i’m supposed to be chasing. like dating sites, sure, i could build a better one if i thought about it, but honestly i don’t give a shit, too bad. although, if you asked me to help you build one i probably would. i’m actually a top-class engineer, most likely. just inexperienced, a bunch of shit to learn, and an elusive passion to find.
the search for that special problem that means me tired. excited, but tired. i can’t tell if it’s because i lack a creative outlet, or if it’s because i’m working too hard. those are two extremes. not sure how that’s possible.
in any case, i’m probably not going anywhere until this problem is solved. i’ll get stronger, but i’ll be going nowhere. like half the people at my gym.