when i heard patrick swayze was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, i realized i had a paper to finish.
i think it is much closer to finished, after i just went all out for two days. i just didn’t have the time before. or did i? maybe that is a lie. but my motivation was suddenly very high.
in a way, finishing a long overdue task like that feels like letting go of something in the past, even though in another way it is just revisiting my past in order to overcome it. not that this is anything to overcome, either. see? there i go overthinking things again. but yeah, i have to embrace my future.