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i am waiting for that episode with fry’s dog where that song from possibly my favorite film plays at the end, “i will wait for you” from les parapluies des cherbourg.

i miss cable, but it is evil. the last couple years i was here for christmas i found myself watching nonstop bond movies. anyway, i’m hoping to redesign here, somehow. while watching futurama. it’s been a while.

you know something that may or may not be sad? i don’t really have any tradition in my life.

i did say “may or may not be.” well, i honestly and seriously don’t know if that is good or bad. it’s easy to get locked into bad traditions, as with anything else in life. but there are good traditions, traditions that you can celebrate, that aren’t hurtful or discriminatory or retarded. like making new years’ resolutions and promptly discarding them, or eating sushi boats on your birthday.

christmas is a time for certain traditions. i’m watching tv right now and people are talking about what they do every year for christmas, the food they always eat, and so on. besides maybe the sushi boat on my birthday, i don’t do any of this. my family doesn’t really either. we barely give gifts at christmas time. as immigrants, we don’t really eat the special christmas food–we may or may not have a turkey, depending on how lazy we are. i’m the only one who drinks, too.

and the reason i long for stuff like that is because tradition brings comfort. the comfort of the familiar. and in a relatively uncertain (i wouldn’t say turbulent or anything) time of my life it would be nice to have just one or two more traditions. it doesn’t even have to be a family tradition. i think one tradition i would like is to go to england every year. maybe when i get richer, haha.

i guess the bigger question is, what am i gonna do next year, huh. and hooray, this is my first decently long post in a while. anyway, happy christmas and whatever holiday you decide to celebrate.