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and i totally see why you are in public health. i don’t know if i could convince anybody of anything, though.

i can tear one in you but it doesn’t always mean anything. i can only see half.

i can do better. but then again, we always can, can’t we. dirty retrospect. although i am not as good as i want to be, in retrospect i have gotten a lot better in the past year or so. so that’s something to look forward to, getting even better as life finally catches up with me (or i finally catch up with life, i’m not sure which one it is yet).

things in project lab are finally working! we think so, anyways. we actually have the little tiny-ass pieces of the promoter we want. and earlier this week i finally made that damn zif-fingerless vector i’d been working on for two weeks. there are only 20 days left of lab. can you believe that? that also means my grad school app time is running out. it’s one of those aforementioned “can do better” things, and i know i keep returning to it.

non-work? well last night i went to quality cafe twice. the first time, there was a mother and her 4 1/2 year old child. anyway, it was special because it was the first time i’ve seen a chinese mother tell her son to eat LESS. she wanted to save the food for tomorrow’s (err today’s) lunch. but she did make him try everything. i credit my mother with making me try everything, because if she hadn’t, i wouldn’t eat so many strange and wonderful things now. the power of acceptance. just pass right on by your fears like they weren’t there. i wish i could do that all the time. the second time i had wonton noodle soup, mwahaha. not too interesting but that place fills up at night. rock on.

back to work. i have to study, you know. if i get better than 700 on my cell biology gre i will be really happy. but then again, i could just be really happy anyway. i’ll take the second one.