Archive for July, 2004

repeat

Friday, July 23rd, 2004

i spent a lot of brain power looking for days i would repeat. not days i would repeat to change history, but days just to repeat because they’re beautiful. and i just made the connection with the film after life. of course, then i could talk about things i want to delete. then we’d be talking about eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.

in any case, a lot of those days have come in the past month and a half, two months maybe. maybe it’s the relative newness of these days that makes them sharper, and then i remember all the good things about them more easily. but i’m really sure there are other days. like my third birthday. i still remember that day pretty sharply, for some reason. and my tenth birthday, too. i wasted a whole hour that day. i’d even repeat a couple of “bad” days, because they didn’t turn out that bad in hindsight. like that day in first grade where i learned not to jump to conclusions so easily. actually i need to repeat that day pretty often, haha.

the days i’d like to repeat tend to be the ones i think about fastest, the ones that instantly come to mind. but i think i’ll stop thinking about it now, because that sort of interferes with the whole fast thinking thing.

would i repeat today? probably not right now. maybe later.

i guess you might repeat things if you’re afraid of them ending. like on a cd player, you don’t want the music to stop so you make it repeat. row row row your boat gently down the stream merrily merrily merrily merrily life is but a dream REPEAT! but eventually you might want to listen to something different. new experience, maybe the same artist, maybe not, but new.

sore

Friday, July 23rd, 2004

how the hell do people play sports around here?

i’m going to pass out. and i have to go to guangzhou for a couple days tomorrow. i don’t know how it’s going to work either, my grandmother is walking really slowly now. i don’t even know how i’m going to get there or exactly who from my family is going.

sometimes things are really uncomfortable.

gone are the days

Tuesday, July 20th, 2004

when you went to the dentist to have your teeth cleaned and he/she immediately rewards you with a lollipop, reversing all of the hard work.

now, you get powerful, addictive painkillers instead. mmm, what a great deal!

lost my appetite. wrong place for that. seeing a dentist is a little cheaper here though, and a lot of times, none of that insurance bullshit to deal with. (i hope)