ever since i came here. half the time i can’t really say anything because i don’t want to offend anybody. if i become any calmer i’ll become a rock.
to not have my camera would be a shame. except, out of all the pictures i’ve taken not one is good. i did manage to fix my camera myself when it failed the other day.
my heart is already gone. i’m already thinking about the stuff i have to do next week in japan and when i get home. like gre and shop and pack and get a new phone and crap like that. i am always too far ahead of the game in spirit but always behind the game in action. please kick me in the ass and make me continue.
today i sat in killian and ate a cranberry muffin for breakfast. all these little finches (? i never learned my birds… sparrows? the small little brown ones that are oh so cute) flew down and started staring at me patiently. so i started throwing them bits of my muffin and watched them fight over it and do funny little back and forth dances for the ones that were too close to me. watching the little males fluff up their feathers and do these silly little jigs in front of the females who kind of just stared at them in a bored way. anyway, it was a quiet, nice little moment. only afterwards i started imagining them getting really sick because the muffin was so damn sweet