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i watched some more television. there was this episode of “perfect proposal” today. on that show the guests basically plan perfect ways to propose marriage. today’s guy was an asian from chicago who was eerily like me, except for the fact that he was an accountant. when i say like me, i say he handles things like that the same way as me. he’s timid as hell, but pays a lot of attention.
the allure of those lubby-dubby shows is very powerful to me, but i don’t really know why. honestly, though, i want the day i propose marriage to be perfect. who doesn’t? this guy got the executive chef of the hyatt in chicago to make chocolate scluptures for the proposal. that’s quite badass.
arick shao visited me today. thanks arick. in the course of today we were able to find out just how boring oklahoma is sometimes. tried to find something to do, ended up at the mall in my hometown of norman. that lasted 20 minutes, the time it took to walk around the mall. then we tried another mall. you’d think we would have learned from our mistakes. there was a carousel, though, although it cost a bit too much to ride. i had a pretzel too. whee. there also was an arcade there so we wasted a little more time there but not that much.
so at that arcade there was this other non-ddr dancing game. it was weird. but it had 80s music, which redeems any bad qualities. like take on me, girls just want to have fun, call me, etc. yay for a major-label supported video game. but the gameplay was kind of lame. ddr is kind of not fun now also, haha. its music is very lame, among other things. i think certain things are only fun if you have other fools or friends to do them with you.
mall-hopping. that’s what highschoolers do. except i don’t understand it at all. i never was a mallrat myself. there’s nothing to do at the mall except for buying stuff, and i have nothing to buy right now. (oh my, sometimes tetris is like the other half of me. best eleven dollars ever. really.)
there is still a very strong part of me that wants to just wander off, follow impulse, and impulse took us back to our boarding school, ossm. as much as i used to hate the place i certainly look at it differently now. everyone is nicer once you graduate, for one. but you also grow up, you lose that air of self-importance you had, and you look around and everything has changed. just think, i am twenty years old now. so high school was a whopping twenty percent of my life, four years.
it was nice to see some of the people again. and it’s scary to see how we all ended up so far apart. i haven’t heard from some of these people in ages. i look forward to seeing them again, i have to make the effort. i want to say that those that don’t make the effort are bad friends but they aren’t. but still, somebody has to make the effort. i am willing to do so, thus i should.
i should have talked to some of the current students. i wonder if they are scared. i wonder if they will even remember everything. when i was reminicing and certain events came up, events my friends swore i attended, i couldn’t remember anything at all. not even being there. nothing. that was very scary. there was some water fight right before we graduated. can’t remember it. i want to remember it, it was a good memory, but i can’t. arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh i must have lost my mind.
so it basically boiled down to the fact that i saw people today. otherwise it’d be really boring. i still haven’t taken my random driving trip yet, working on that soon i hope. seeing all this stuff makes me scared of uh, life. real life, which is coming along very soon. graduating, getting a job, going to graduate school, fending for myself, getting married, having cute babies. (all babies are cute, except maybe dead ones and evil ones from horror movies like chuckie.)
balancing my life is hard. there’s a lot of stuff to balance, a lot of issues.