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they have to be maintained.

last night i thought of two of the most beautiful sentences ever. but i never wrote them down. one of them involved a combover. the other involved my day.

and then it’s all lost.

in a way, i do worry about having my memory erased. i’m sure i’ve mentioned this before, but one of my greatest fears is having alzheimer’s disease, because i would forget so much of what’s good in life.

in a way, it’s all image, the things you want people to see when you’re gone. i don’t want to be fooled.

saw eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. possibly the best film all year (granted, it’s still early).

i have to go think now, not that it’s much different from other times.

everywhere i turn, i’m running out of space. hard disk, dormitory room, website, brain.

so, it finally rained. on a scale of one to ten, that was maybe four. who cares if i get sick. in some ways, it’s too late.

i want to see a waterfall, like the thoughts in my head. then again i guess it doesn’t matter if i see it as long as i feel it. i finished rereading le petit prince in english. yeah it’s invisible. i can help protect the world, can’t i? that’s what i want to do. and usually, when i know what i want, it’s easy to get there. but i can’t see this path. and maybe that’s what makes it so great.

i didn’t trust myself, and now i’m paying for it. well, it’s not too late for everything yet. let’s go!