maybe not. i feel like i do the same things, but to different people now. all the roles have changed, sort of. i’m nice to different people. i’m mean to different people. i’m indifferent to different people.
it’s like one day, one minute, one moment, i just ran out of things to say to some of you. and i just don’t say anything anymore. i don’t participate in any way. there was a conversation i had at krispy kreme. in there was a remark about not wasting time, or at least forcing others to show their hands as far as friendship is concerned. and when nobody tries to do that, it should throw warning flags everywhere.
so i might not be the best friend. then again, you might not be either. so now we’re even. i know we’ll get by. yeah, we’ll hang out. not really. so why lie? it’s why i try not to make plans too far in advance. let’s just go! i mean, planning just gives us a chance to bail out later. i wish i had more spontaneous friends, but i can’t expect that much from everyone.
still, let’s not plan things that won’t happen. some things have to be planned. like the long-term future. what are you going to do with your life? that has to be planned. what are you going to do tomorrow? that, not so much. and because of this i’m going to wendy’s tomorrow. (the restaurant, that is.) it’ll be fun. i just wish i had more time. then i could do anything . . .
halo helped with some of you, though. even if it was just a rehash, it brought us a little closer. i had fun turning non-team games into team games. that certainly wasn’t planned. not everything has to change. looney tunes don’t change. i’m going to watch now.