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stupid mozilla randomly eliminated all my bookmarks. this for some reason made me less likely to write here until i made another mark.

it was very, very loud at john harvard’s. i had fun but i am sleepy. work is getting better again ever since i decided to NOT work when i am not at the hospital. (big stress relief!)

i noticed today that everyone i know who i believe lacks confidence drags or shuffles their feet slightly when they walk. maybe this is why i believe they are not confident or maybe it is a characteristic of those who lack confidence. i’m not sure which one.

hmmm it’s almost over already! but each end is a new beginning. a bit hackneyed but true. even the end where you die, i bet. yeah work sucks but is great but bogs me down but i’ll make it for nine more days. yeah i need the money, i think.

personally, i don’t like the sponge tofu quite as much but it’s still pretty good. well we can always eat more later.

i clogged our toilet. it made me late to the stand-up tonight. it turned out ok, except, i think the toilet in our flat has a funny shape, because i couldn’t get the plunger working for the life of me for like thirty minutes.

it’s really strange how i always forget all those thoughts i meant to write down. then when i write i get lost and end up writing about something completely different.

oh, last night i dreamed i was on the 1978 international olympic committee. (except, there was no olympics then i think.) hahaha, the video pitch for new york was funny, all these people beating each other up. they were actually so proud. i was confused. montreal was nice in my dream.

every weekend, i screw up what is otherwise a good sleeping schedule.

here i am at mit again. in an athena cluster waiting for dinner. i look around at the posters and think, wow everyone is so busy. some people very short-sighted. some people use terms in bothersome manners, half-deceptive. like the people who state their opinion, or a completely biased quote, and then ask you to join their “forum” which is unlikely to be a forum because the opinions of those participating are usually set. in addition, should you decide to disagree in such a “forum” you either get flamed or banned. some forum.

i personally buy the argument that the internet will continue to be an unorganised avalanche of random information. it will become more powerful, more useful– but it will never become focused like some people imagine. the “e” key on this keyboard sucks ass.

i suck ass. but i did get to work on time. i enjoy my job but i am tired. it’s weird to see people who look exactly like people you know from the past. it’s just as much fun to watch people toil or walk by or smile or talk.